I have not posted as much as I would have like lately. Unfortunately I have been suffering from a bit of the dreaded writers block, with dozens of half finished blogs in my head that refuse to leave my fingers into my laptop.
A sleepless night last night caused me to dwell on this a bit and perhaps the reason is because I am a wee bit angry with myself lately. Therefore I am offering this blog as an apology to myself.
Ashamed does not even begin to cover the fact that I have been resenting the success of my acquaintances and loved ones the past year. My lovely friends have been busy building houses, having babies, getting married, getting promoted, enjoying jobs in their chosen fields and earning more money than me. I have been adopting a “why not me” mentality, blaming everyone and everything else for my current situation when the fact of the matter it, quite simply, I have nobody to blame but myself.
This year has been a domino effect from a few bad decisions made about this time last year. Obviously the Global Financial Crisis has contributed somewhat to my current career desperation, but I have now made a conscious decision to stop blaming the GFC, the EX-boyfriend etc for every disappointment.
So now that is off my chest, I can be genuinely happy for the people I love again.
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